Jul 24, 2021SonYou became mortal in front of my eyes. First, I justified you. I made up excuses in my head to make sense for your absence. No, you were physically here, every meal, every night, but you were emotionally somewhere else. At night, I used to imagine that you would tell…Fiction5 min readFiction5 min read
Apr 23, 2021DyingFor a while, I’ve been dying. It has not been a quick process. Rather slow if you ask me. It reminds me of an elaborate recipe that ends up in the slow cooker. You just have to sit and wait. There is no purpose in changing course midway or yell…5 min read5 min read
Mar 14, 2021ChangesIt is Friday evening. Slowly, the city gets ready for another night of party. Music is blasting from small shops filling the sidewalks, plastic chairs and overpriced beer emerge like flowers in the spring. People will party tonight as if theirs lives depended on it. It makes sense. In this…Fiction5 min readFiction5 min read
Feb 9, 2021RoseThis is the second time you do not come home for the holidays. The first time was on me, I own that one. I made a mistake, and I am not proud of that. I should not have pushed your buttons. This is something parents know too well about their…Fiction Writing8 min readFiction Writing8 min read
Jan 8, 2021MontrealThis is my third time in Montreal. But this time is different. I called her. Why? Because I am 43, divorced and not sure how long I am going to live. I am not dying either. I mean, we are all going to die eventually so my motivation is not…Fiction Writing9 min readFiction Writing9 min read
Dec 13, 2020Cindy-Come, join us for lunch, I said Are you sure? She hesitated, half looking at me, half paying attention to the people in the back, slowing down her pace towards the front door -Yes, it is her birthday, the whole family is going out. Come with us! Ok, if you…Fiction12 min readFiction12 min read
Nov 13, 2020LeilaI dreamed about you when I was 10. I saw your big black eyes. Your dark hair. I learned your name: Leila. I heard your voice and the tones of an unknown language. I saw you smiling. …Fiction Writing4 min readFiction Writing4 min read
Oct 6, 2020NanaThe blue tie was a gift from Nana. Use it for church, she said. Not so much for the lord but for the young ladies. You know, that is why they go to church on Sundays too. When I was younger, I wanted to look good for Jesus. But my…Fiction8 min readFiction8 min read
Sep 7, 2020TearsI can’t remember the last time I cried my eyes out. The last time I felt the well of my tears dry. My mouth dry, dehydrated from crying. I am sitting on the steps by the window, I let the last tears flow. They fall on the floor and on…Fiction6 min readFiction6 min read
Aug 11, 2020SleepingIt is 12:35 am and the baby might wake up in any minute. Sleep training, no one tells you about this. No one really tells you that you are screwed, and you will never ever sleep again. Well, you will sleep again. But you will do it poorly. You will…Fiction6 min readFiction6 min read
